Blood. Sweat. And Tears.

It is not my place to sit in judgement of any of my fellow humans.  I accept that what makes you you is not what makes me me.  Just because I don’t like the colour yellow it doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t.  I have an understanding of the human psyche from the interactions I have been a part of.

Now that I have that out of the way we need to discuss boundaries.  I would have said once that I hadn’t any.  Live and let live I would squeal as I dived into the madness head first.  Now, the landscape has changed somewhat and I guess I will just put the blame where I see it – pornography.

Everything is so much more intense out there.  I have seen men who have been down the rabbit hole and never come back out – such a dangerous place to live.  When you come to me asking for a little CBT – you simply must tell me what this means to you because it is possible that we have different interpretations of these kinks.

Sounding.  This is something I do not wish to engage in again.  I do not like to cause pain – don’t care if you like it – it hurts my soul.  I cannot abide it.

While I am being a bit of a grump – if you sweat profusely pleaase let me know prior to our date so I can ensure the room is cool enough and there be a towel near by.  If you are a smoker please make your way to my en-suite and use the mouthwash provided.  Just small things that need a little ironing out.  Thanks.

I cried for days over the man who wanted the pain.  I love pleasure.  I enjoy the odd spanking and hair pulling too but I prefer this be discussed so you understand my limits too.  xx

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Penis Pumps.

More than a few of my guests have ED due from prostate cancer – that may make it difficult to obtain or maintain an erection.  This is such a serious issue causing low self-esteem and confidence among our beautiful men.

I don’t know that women can really understand what that is like for a man, try as she might.  I could argue that many a women would wonder what it is like to lose the ability to orgasm when they possibly haven’t even experienced one.  Women just get on with it.  Remember, men are the true romantics.

A couple of my guests have pondered whether or not a penis pump would be a good idea.  I simply haven’t any experience but I did do a fair amount of research on the subject.  A good old Kiwi company appears to be right up there with the best so I am going to write and see if I can perhaps trial a couple.  Why not? If it is important to you, it is important to me.

If you have experience with penis pumps or in fact any other toys that have helped with your own ED I would be ever so grateful to hear from you.  Let’s sort this out! xx

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Menopause.

I have such a deep understanding of men – I have spent most of my life studying them so I guess that makes sense.

My clientele is made up of 70% married men – most of these men absolutely love their wives and would far prefer to be fucking them than me.  I get it.  Many have spent years trying to get back what once was only to find they are left out in the cold … so to speak.

I would love to sit down with these wives.  I would love to share the secrets any good courtesan learns.  I wish women could see the pain they are causing their men by denying them intimacy.  And intimacy is what we are really talking about here.

Sure, men will come and fuck me and I will share my body and mind as much as I can but it is the intimacy being withheld by their lover that they really want.  I am just a stand in.  I want all men to feel like men.  I want to make every man feel 10 feet tall.  You are loved.  You are wanted.

Women simply do not understand the power they wield within the relationship.  I wish I could have meetings with women who deny their men.  And then we need to really talk about menopause.  Yikes.

I went through surgical menopause when I was young.  I had cancer.  Everything was removed.  This meant I went into menopause at a young age but I was put on HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) so never went through the awful side effects of losing precious hormones.  These hormones are so important to a woman’s sexual health.  I cannot stress that enough.

Do some research.  You will discover that fuck all research has gone into women’s sexual health because it was never deemed important.  Women were there to have children and once that job was done then … go fuck yourself.  Honestly.  It is dismal.

I will tell you something that might blow your mind.  Women are far more sexual than men.  Yes.  It’s true.  We are not encouraged to be though, we are almost made to feel bad for being such divine sexual creatures and then it’s all over when menopause smashes through the door.  It needn’t be.

Men.  Get informed.  Women can start the process in their late 30’s with perimenopause so both of you need to be on the same page.  Together.  HRT may just be the answer.

 

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Erectile Dysfunction.

Now, the words erectile dysfunction hold very little interest until it happens to you.  We simply don’t imagine that ever being an issue and then all of a sudden, it is.  What makes it that much worse is the feeling of inadequacy that comes with it.

It might be that you are really horny, you want your erection to stay but then your mind starts throwing thoughts around which makes the whole experience disappointing and frustrating.  I know.  I have witnessed this first hand – many times.

The prostate seems to play a huge role in this whole debacle so I would advise men to keep an eye on this from your 50’s on.  And let’s add to that, I know nothing but the men I have seen with this issue have all told me that it was from that age that things started to go sideways in terms of ED.

Let me state for the record : ED is serious.  I like to imagine that I am fully empathetic to the problem.  I understand that this is a very stressful experience for men.  But.  This doesn’t mean that your cock in my mouth won’t feel as good if you can’t get hard.  This doesn’t mean you are unable to pleasure a woman.  This doesn’t mean that your kiss won’t make me gush.

Allowing ourselves to feel pleasure is the goal.  You are more than your hard cock.  xx

 

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Audio.

I was masturbating with Zeus recently when it occurred to me that perhaps some of you might be interested in listening so I quickly pressed the record button.

I sent it out to a few of my VIP’s just to get feedback really – did you like it? Would you like to hear more? I was so surprised that it was well received.  A few nights after that I was cock worshipping when I asked if he would mind if I recorded it – I forgot I was recording for a while there so it is a fair bit longer.

Those of you who know me already know that I don’t fake anything.  Some have asked that I have video sex but I refuse – why? Mostly because I don’t want to be focussed on how I look in the throes of ecstasy – I want to get lost in the erotic moment.

For me, there is something truly intimate in this way of sharing myself sexually.  I love that you could be anywhere listening to me orgasm.  I love that you send your photos to me with your raging hard cock or even better when I have made you orgasm.  It’s just really fucking hot.

Next I will see if I can record myself gushing.  When I am really really aroused I don’t need to touch myself to gush – I can just use my mind.  Mind sex.  It is the fucking ultimate.  xxx

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Performance.

You have nothing to prove.  I do not need you to re-enact some porn scene that turned you on.  What is sexy to me is watching you become overwhelmed.  I want you to lose yourself.  I want you to stop thinking and start being in the moment.  It’s where you ought be.

I am not a porn star.  You can’t throw me around the bed and expect that to turn me on.  And it might be that you don’t care whether or not I am turned on – it’s your date and while I love to feel the passion – there are some who don’t get the correlation between my arousal and theirs.

I want you to understand that we are in this together.  I want nothing more than to give you the experience you desire but you have to be in the experience.  Ya know? If you are worried you are going to orgasm too quickly just say and I will slow down and match your energy.

In saying that though, it seems so silly to me to try and stop yourself from cumming too quickly.  I want you to lose yourself in the moment.  I want to feel your body shake.  I want I want I want.  You’d think this was all about me huh? Grin.  It fucking is.

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Male Energy.

Male energy draws me in like nothing else.  There is something so primal that I can’t help but respond.  I love women but it is man that fills me with desire.

Men make love.  Women make deals.  If I could pass that on to men they would have such a better understanding of women.  If you have every imagined you, as a man, picked any woman up – you are mistaken.  It is always the woman who decides if she is going to fuck you.  Always.

Of course, I will always enjoy fucking a woman but nothing will make me cum harder than a man watching me lick his woman especially if he is riding me at the same time.  Purr.

 

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Phone Sex.

I love phone sex.  There, I have said it.  The very idea of you masturbating while you listen to me is such a turn on.  Like every aspect of this journey, as much as I enjoy making you hot and sticky – this is as much about my arousal.

Before I start a call I will ensure I have a thick towel beneath me.  Experience tells me that sleeping in a soaking wet bed is not pleasant.  The great arm of Zeus sits waiting for me on my bedside table.  I am naked.  I wait.

Will you be in your office? Sitting in your car? Lying on your bed? The possibilities are endless.  The caller last wanted to hear about my first time.  Zeus started humming while I spoke aloud that first experience.  I listened to his breathing change.  I imagined him stroking his cock.  I begged him to send a photo of the cum in his hands afterwards.  I love that.

Why not video calls? I want to be free to writhe in unison without feeling like I need to put on a show.  And isn’t there something wholly erotic about the sound of someone’s passion anyway? Yes.  There is.  I always gush when I phone fuck.  Always.  All ways.  x

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Arousal.

It’s no secret that once I am aroused I can stay in this state for as long as I want.  I can gush without touching myself. One of the many reasons I am grateful I am a woman.

I have been teaching myself something new – if I lay on my back and breathe rapidly and clench my cunt and work my abdominal muscles it is as though my body remembers this feeling and reacts accordingly.  It’s quite the thing.  I would love to teach other women this technique.

Often a client will want to know why I am not squirting with them with most not understanding arousal.  I do get aroused sucking cock.  Let me have my way with you.  Be yourself.  Be real.  I will lead you there.

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Age.

If I had a dollar for every man under the age of 30 who has asked for a date – I would have retired by now.  I always feel bad turning them down but for me to remain authentic I have to.  Some have said I should teach them and others have said I am a fool for not taking their money.

I am not sure if you understand this yet but this isn’t about money.  Of course, I won’t fuck for free but I am not for younger men.  I haven’t the patience.  I enjoy older men.  I just do.  I won’t apologise for that.  While younger men have a certain staying power that can’t be denied – it is the older man who has the experience that this particular whore enjoys.

Forgive me if I tell you that I am too old for you – this is my way of saying you are too young for me.  Both are true.

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