Viagra.

Recently, I had a visit from a VIP who’d brought with him a little blue pill to trial.  It isn’t that he has erectile issues but he wanted to know what it would feel like to have a bigger, harder cock.

As advised by his drug dealer doctor, Steve had a half and within 30minutes he was … up and running.  I can tell you that it did make his cock more engorged and indeed it was harder.  Interesting.

Usually, Steve visits for a good few hours and while we both experience incredible orgasms – this time was different.  This time Steve came three times within the space of three hours.  Even as he was getting dressed to leave, I beckoned him to the bed so I could feel the weight of his cock in my hand – there was a certain heft to it.

Steve was fortunate enough to not suffer any side effects from taking the little blue pill – a mild headache at most but then he’d cum three times so perhaps that would be quite normal.

His drug dealer doctor didn’t ask too many questions so I imagine it is quite common these days.  Do not let shyness get in your way guys … give it a whirl.  I am right here.  Waiting.  xx

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Cock. Size.

One could say I am a bit of an expert when it comes to judging cock size – I have had a few.  While it would be true enough that many is the time I have squealed with delight when a man arrives with a juicy fat cock – it is time we talk about it.

Most men have average sized cocks.  The majority don’t think their cocks are average sized – is this because they compare themselves to the porn stars they watch? What use is a large cock if he doesn’t know how to use it? Not much.

When I cock worship, the feeling of a large cock filling my mouth my throat – it turns me on something wicked.  But.  The feeling of a huge cock inside my pussy is actually uncomfortable.  His kiss takes me away from the discomfort.  It is in his kiss.  I am not making sense.  Hang on.  Let me gather my thoughts.

I often put myself in the place of my guests.  How it might feel to arrive on my doorstep feeling all kinds of nervous and anxious about my skills, my body.  I understand what that feels like.  I like to imagine if my cock were tiny and non-operational I would up-skill in the areas that impress the fairer sex.

As an example, I have a guest who when he visits will focus on giving me the most amazing massage.  With just his hands the orgasm he teases from my body is incredible.  He is an amazing lover who is unable to sustain an erection or orgasm.

If we focus on what we can improve whether it be communication, oral skills, kissing – it all comes down to being honest and open with each other.  Stop thinking you are less than.  You are more than you could even imagine.

We all have things we are self-conscious about – I am super self-conscious about my body.  And yet – truth is I could easily go to the gym and get all buff and fucking whatnot but I am not interested enough I suppose.  haha.  I am soft and curvy and voluptuous – I am too much for most men.  And that’s OK.  xx

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Blood. Sweat. And Tears.

It is not my place to sit in judgement of any of my fellow humans.  I accept that what makes you you is not what makes me me.  Just because I don’t like the colour yellow it doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t.  I have an understanding of the human psyche from the interactions I have been a part of.

Now that I have that out of the way we need to discuss boundaries.  I would have said once that I hadn’t any.  Live and let live I would squeal as I dived into the madness head first.  Now, the landscape has changed somewhat and I guess I will just put the blame where I see it – pornography.

Everything is so much more intense out there.  I have seen men who have been down the rabbit hole and never come back out – such a dangerous place to live.  When you come to me asking for a little CBT – you simply must tell me what this means to you because it is possible that we have different interpretations of these kinks.

Sounding.  This is something I do not wish to engage in again.  I do not like to cause pain – don’t care if you like it – it hurts my soul.  I cannot abide it.

While I am being a bit of a grump – if you sweat profusely pleaase let me know prior to our date so I can ensure the room is cool enough and there be a towel near by.  If you are a smoker please make your way to my en-suite and use the mouthwash provided.  Just small things that need a little ironing out.  Thanks.

I cried for days over the man who wanted the pain.  I love pleasure.  I enjoy the odd spanking and hair pulling too but I prefer this be discussed so you understand my limits too.  xx

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Penis Pumps.

More than a few of my guests have ED due from prostate cancer – that may make it difficult to obtain or maintain an erection.  This is such a serious issue causing low self-esteem and confidence among our beautiful men.

I don’t know that women can really understand what that is like for a man, try as she might.  I could argue that many a women would wonder what it is like to lose the ability to orgasm when they possibly haven’t even experienced one.  Women just get on with it.  Remember, men are the true romantics.

A couple of my guests have pondered whether or not a penis pump would be a good idea.  I simply haven’t any experience but I did do a fair amount of research on the subject.  A good old Kiwi company appears to be right up there with the best so I am going to write and see if I can perhaps trial a couple.  Why not? If it is important to you, it is important to me.

If you have experience with penis pumps or in fact any other toys that have helped with your own ED I would be ever so grateful to hear from you.  Let’s sort this out! xx

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Menopause.

I have such a deep understanding of men – I have spent most of my life studying them so I guess that makes sense.

My clientele is made up of 70% married men – most of these men absolutely love their wives and would far prefer to be fucking them than me.  I get it.  Many have spent years trying to get back what once was only to find they are left out in the cold … so to speak.

I would love to sit down with these wives.  I would love to share the secrets any good courtesan learns.  I wish women could see the pain they are causing their men by denying them intimacy.  And intimacy is what we are really talking about here.

Sure, men will come and fuck me and I will share my body and mind as much as I can but it is the intimacy being withheld by their lover that they really want.  I am just a stand in.  I want all men to feel like men.  I want to make every man feel 10 feet tall.  You are loved.  You are wanted.

Women simply do not understand the power they wield within the relationship.  I wish I could have meetings with women who deny their men.  And then we need to really talk about menopause.  Yikes.

I went through surgical menopause when I was young.  I had cancer.  Everything was removed.  This meant I went into menopause at a young age but I was put on HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) so never went through the awful side effects of losing precious hormones.  These hormones are so important to a woman’s sexual health.  I cannot stress that enough.

Do some research.  You will discover that fuck all research has gone into women’s sexual health because it was never deemed important.  Women were there to have children and once that job was done then … go fuck yourself.  Honestly.  It is dismal.

I will tell you something that might blow your mind.  Women are far more sexual than men.  Yes.  It’s true.  We are not encouraged to be though, we are almost made to feel bad for being such divine sexual creatures and then it’s all over when menopause smashes through the door.  It needn’t be.

Men.  Get informed.  Women can start the process in their late 30’s with perimenopause so both of you need to be on the same page.  Together.  HRT may just be the answer.

 

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Erectile Dysfunction.

Now, the words erectile dysfunction hold very little interest until it happens to you.  We simply don’t imagine that ever being an issue and then all of a sudden, it is.  What makes it that much worse is the feeling of inadequacy that comes with it.

It might be that you are really horny, you want your erection to stay but then your mind starts throwing thoughts around which makes the whole experience disappointing and frustrating.  I know.  I have witnessed this first hand – many times.

The prostate seems to play a huge role in this whole debacle so I would advise men to keep an eye on this from your 50’s on.  And let’s add to that, I know nothing but the men I have seen with this issue have all told me that it was from that age that things started to go sideways in terms of ED.

Let me state for the record : ED is serious.  I like to imagine that I am fully empathetic to the problem.  I understand that this is a very stressful experience for men.  But.  This doesn’t mean that your cock in my mouth won’t feel as good if you can’t get hard.  This doesn’t mean you are unable to pleasure a woman.  This doesn’t mean that your kiss won’t make me gush.

Allowing ourselves to feel pleasure is the goal.  You are more than your hard cock.  xx

 

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Audio.

I was masturbating with Zeus recently when it occurred to me that perhaps some of you might be interested in listening so I quickly pressed the record button.

I sent it out to a few of my VIP’s just to get feedback really – did you like it? Would you like to hear more? I was so surprised that it was well received.  A few nights after that I was cock worshipping when I asked if he would mind if I recorded it – I forgot I was recording for a while there so it is a fair bit longer.

Those of you who know me already know that I don’t fake anything.  Some have asked that I have video sex but I refuse – why? Mostly because I don’t want to be focussed on how I look in the throes of ecstasy – I want to get lost in the erotic moment.

For me, there is something truly intimate in this way of sharing myself sexually.  I love that you could be anywhere listening to me orgasm.  I love that you send your photos to me with your raging hard cock or even better when I have made you orgasm.  It’s just really fucking hot.

Next I will see if I can record myself gushing.  When I am really really aroused I don’t need to touch myself to gush – I can just use my mind.  Mind sex.  It is the fucking ultimate.  xxx

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Performance.

You have nothing to prove.  I do not need you to re-enact some porn scene that turned you on.  What is sexy to me is watching you become overwhelmed.  I want you to lose yourself.  I want you to stop thinking and start being in the moment.  It’s where you ought be.

I am not a porn star.  You can’t throw me around the bed and expect that to turn me on.  And it might be that you don’t care whether or not I am turned on – it’s your date and while I love to feel the passion – there are some who don’t get the correlation between my arousal and theirs.

I want you to understand that we are in this together.  I want nothing more than to give you the experience you desire but you have to be in the experience.  Ya know? If you are worried you are going to orgasm too quickly just say and I will slow down and match your energy.

In saying that though, it seems so silly to me to try and stop yourself from cumming too quickly.  I want you to lose yourself in the moment.  I want to feel your body shake.  I want I want I want.  You’d think this was all about me huh? Grin.  It fucking is.

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Male Energy.

Male energy draws me in like nothing else.  There is something so primal that I can’t help but respond.  I love women but it is man that fills me with desire.

Men make love.  Women make deals.  If I could pass that on to men they would have such a better understanding of women.  If you have every imagined you, as a man, picked any woman up – you are mistaken.  It is always the woman who decides if she is going to fuck you.  Always.

Of course, I will always enjoy fucking a woman but nothing will make me cum harder than a man watching me lick his woman especially if he is riding me at the same time.  Purr.

 

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Phone Sex.

I love phone sex.  There, I have said it.  The very idea of you masturbating while you listen to me is such a turn on.  Like every aspect of this journey, as much as I enjoy making you hot and sticky – this is as much about my arousal.

Before I start a call I will ensure I have a thick towel beneath me.  Experience tells me that sleeping in a soaking wet bed is not pleasant.  The great arm of Zeus sits waiting for me on my bedside table.  I am naked.  I wait.

Will you be in your office? Sitting in your car? Lying on your bed? The possibilities are endless.  The caller last wanted to hear about my first time.  Zeus started humming while I spoke aloud that first experience.  I listened to his breathing change.  I imagined him stroking his cock.  I begged him to send a photo of the cum in his hands afterwards.  I love that.

Why not video calls? I want to be free to writhe in unison without feeling like I need to put on a show.  And isn’t there something wholly erotic about the sound of someone’s passion anyway? Yes.  There is.  I always gush when I phone fuck.  Always.  All ways.  x

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