The Fucking Goddess

throwaway thoughts

The Phone Sex Experience

I remember many many moons ago calling a phone sex line - it was English and a recording that is how lame it was. I really love phone sex.  It is a bit of a kink of mine truth be told.  I mean, what on earth could be sexier than talking…

The Porn Star Experience

I had a man recently book the GFE but before he hung up asked if this also included a golden shower.  I asked him if that was something his girlfriend did for him.  It wasn't.  It isn't.  Anything you wouldn't ask your girlfriend to do most…

The Girlfriend Experience

The Girlfriend Experience really does feel like a bit of an oxymoron to me, because, let's face it - if your girlfriend was giving you the experience you would hardly be looking for me. If it were up to me it would be called The VIP Experience. …

Halt.

I had an enquiry recently by a lovely man who beguiled me with his first email.  The second email wasn't as pleasant when it felt like he was questioning my sexual health and whether or not I have security cameras.  It irritates me when men…

Us.

I often tell guests that I will not fake anything during our time together and I mean that.  I think it is so important that I be truthful regarding sexual energy.  I will even take a mans face in my hands and tell him that he must wait for…

Her.

I will do my best to convey my thoughts on the subject of female sexuality but please remember that I really know nothing much at all other than what I have experienced.  I understand my perspective may be a little different to other women. …

Him.

Let's start with the idea that I only have an understanding of this subject from my years in the sex industry so it is from my personal viewpoint and experience.  This comes from a heartfelt desire to help my fellow humans develop a deep sexual…

Me. Kinda.

My hair isn't actually pink - it is just a thing I am trying out.  The best invention for this photography stuff is the $18 selfie stick I bought from Kmart the other day - you can see it in my hand in this photo.  Brilliant. Self conscious…

Self Image.

I have spent days learning all about photography and editing.  I am so sick to death of looking at myself especially because I am feeling less than impressed with myself. I had photos taken by a photographer but we didn't have the same vision. …

Photos.

I am quite photo phobic.  Its quite the challenge to allow a stranger to take personal photos that I hope will arouse the man who finds himself on my website.  A professional photographer I have yet to meet will be arriving tomorrow night…

Ye Olde Dick Pics.

Many is the man who has sent a photo of his beautiful cock my way when asked and of course, at times, when not asked so I have quite the collection now.  There are some who when I hear them cum during a phone call that I ask to take a photo…

Moons.

On a hot summer night, would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses? Will he offer me his mouth? Yes Will he offer me his teeth? Yes Will he offer me his jaw? Yes Will he offer me his hunger? Yes Again, will he offer me…

Merry Ho Ho’s.

Here we are again.  Christmas.  For me it is a bittersweet day spent contemplating what the next year might bring.  Those of you who know me will already know that I don't have any people to spend it with so if you find yourself feeling a…

Sub. Mission.

You know who you are.  You walk with head held high while you stride with confidence.  Yeah.  You.  You are in charge with so many responsibilities and more than enough people relying on your abilities.  You’ve got this! You are in complete…

Queening Chairs.

In middle ages, many women of wealth had male "tongue" slaves that would "serve" them whenever their husbands were away. The idea of only sitting on a man's face would allow them to experience some pleasure but remain faithful to their husbands. In…

Shed. Your. Skin.

You could save yourself a lot of trouble by trusting me.  I would wish that you relax and shed your skin when around me.  I have caught many in a lie that they have no need to tell.  I am simply here for you to experience who you really are. …

Initiative.

Let me start this post off by admitting I know less than Jon Snow when it comes to most things so please take what I am about to write with more than a few grains of salt.  What do I know? I can't pretend to understand your particular relationship…

The Grand Experiment.

I have quite the interest in orgasms - yours and mine truth be told. For the purposes of this post, it is my orgasm we are talking about today. If pleasure were a sound it would be that small sigh that escapes from between your lips. Those…

Wanted. Lover.

You would think a woman like me would have enough pleasure coming her way.  You would think a woman like me shouldn't need a lover with the men she has in her life.  You would be wrong. A woman like me finds it difficult to truly let go…

Heckamejingers.

I learned something today about men and their orgasms.  A lovely man who has been to see me several times admitted his disappointment that he'd yet to fuck me.  I was really surprised at this admission.  To be fair, he did not lay blame on…

Viagra.

Recently, I had a visit from a VIP who'd brought with him a little blue pill to trial.  It isn't that he has erectile issues but he wanted to know what it would feel like to have a bigger, harder cock. As advised by his drug dealer doctor,…

Cock. Size.

One could say I am a bit of an expert when it comes to judging cock size - I have had a few.  While it would be true enough that many is the time I have squealed with delight when a man arrives with a juicy fat cock - it is time we talk about…

Blood. Sweat. And Tears.

It is not my place to sit in judgement of any of my fellow humans.  I accept that what makes you you is not what makes me me.  Just because I don't like the colour yellow it doesn't mean that you shouldn't.  I have an understanding of the…

Penis Pumps.

More than a few of my guests have ED due from prostate cancer - that may make it difficult to obtain or maintain an erection.  This is such a serious issue causing low self-esteem and confidence among our beautiful men. I don't know that…

Menopause.

I have such a deep understanding of men - I have spent most of my life studying them so I guess that makes sense. My clientele is made up of 70% married men - most of these men absolutely love their wives and would far prefer to be fucking…

Erectile Dysfunction.

Now, the words erectile dysfunction hold very little interest until it happens to you.  We simply don't imagine that ever being an issue and then all of a sudden, it is.  What makes it that much worse is the feeling of inadequacy that comes…

Audio.

I was masturbating with Zeus recently when it occurred to me that perhaps some of you might be interested in listening so I quickly pressed the record button. I sent it out to a few of my VIP's just to get feedback really - did you like it?…

Performance.

You have nothing to prove.  I do not need you to re-enact some porn scene that turned you on.  What is sexy to me is watching you become overwhelmed.  I want you to lose yourself.  I want you to stop thinking and start being in the moment. …

Male Energy.

Male energy draws me in like nothing else.  There is something so primal that I can't help but respond.  I love women but it is man that fills me with desire. Men make love.  Women make deals.  If I could pass that on to men they would…

Phone Sex.

I love phone sex.  There, I have said it.  The very idea of you masturbating while you listen to me is such a turn on.  Like every aspect of this journey, as much as I enjoy making you hot and sticky - this is as much about my arousal. Before…

Arousal.

It's no secret that once I am aroused I can stay in this state for as long as I want.  I can gush without touching myself. One of the many reasons I am grateful I am a woman. I have been teaching myself something new - if I lay on my back…

Age.

If I had a dollar for every man under the age of 30 who has asked for a date - I would have retired by now.  I always feel bad turning them down but for me to remain authentic I have to.  Some have said I should teach them and others have…

Now & Then.

There is only now and then. Now he is on his way. Now I can start to feel my heart racing and my impatience for his mouth on mine hits hard. Hurry. Just be here now. And then he is here and I am here and we are right there. I cannot get enough…

The Perfect Whore.

The pool of desire is the most brilliant of blues. It is surrounded by the most luscious of greens. The stones that lead to it are slippery and uneven making it almost impossible to reach. Trust me, it is worth the risk. Dive right in. There…

Gods.

I often find myself reminding my men that they are Gods.  Sometimes I feel the recoil and other times they laugh at the absurdity of that statement.  Nevertheless.  It is true. All men are Gods.  All women are Goddess.  We have just…

Guilt.

I have been thinking about guilt.  I mean, what's that really about? Why can't we have what we want when we want it? It is a question I ask myself more often these days. Surely.  If we are getting everything we need from one person then…

Whore!

Whore! I love that word. It is the perfect description for what I am. I am a whore. Now, many a man refuses to use that word with me thinking it derogatory. To me, it isn’t. It is a wonderful word - much like the word cunt. I own it. A…

Oral Sex.

When it comes to giving great oral sex there are definite moves one can easily incorporate to ensure it is more enjoyable. First.  Let's stop with the whole 69 bullshit! I want to give or I want to receive - I can't do both at the same time. Second. …

Sex Addiction.

In the past week I have had three men ask me if I think I might be addicted to sex.  It has given me reason to ponder this a little more deeply.  The short answer is no.  I am not a sex addict.  Not, at all.  If I were not being paid to…

Pornography.

It might seem rather odd at first that I am not keen on pornography.  My reasons may not be what you imagine.  For me, it is all about real sex - not performance acting so it galls me when clients come knocking imagining they will enter a…

Our Secret Selves.

What are you thinking about at the moment of orgasm? This question was recently posed to me by an Auckland Dom who was trying to get inside my head.  And yes, it got me thinking.  What are my triggers? This, of course, started me down a road…

What To Expect.

I try my best not to have any expectations when he arrives at my door.  I try to remember this sexual experience is not actually about me, it is about him.  Sometimes I blur the lines I'll admit. Arrive on time.  This is always a positive…